Its okay to give up the fight. Put your sword down, let your barriers break, open up your mind and your heart. It is safe to soften, to open.
You don’t have to constantly fight with yourself, or live with inner turmoil simply because you are too afraid of what it would mean to be open. Its okay to slip into acceptance, to know that where you are in this very moment is completely perfect, to let yourself be held by that. Because the present moment is all encompassing and its all around you. Its holding you right now, whether you are aware of it or not. Let yourself surrender to that. Cause let me tell you life is completely crazy, and if you waste even a breath trying to figure it out and wondering why it didn’t go the way you thought it would, then you’re going to miss out on the fulfilment that’s already here for you. Because we can never predict what will happen to us (or for us), let alone begin to understand why.
I thought this summer would be the most peaceful, relaxing summer of my life, and it ended up being one shitstorm after the next – I’m in this place right now where I’m honestly terrified and I don’t know whats going on or why. I was so so stressed out and I felt like I was going crazy because of it. And I realised I couldn’t go on like this because I was literally losing my mind… and I knew that there was only one thing I could do: surrender.
When something is out of your control, like most often it is, thats really the only thing you can do. Accept the situation, and surrender. Its okay to let your guard down, to stop pretending you have it all together and under control, to stop lying to yourself. Because you’re basically only fooling yourself. Life doesn’t really make sense sometimes, but give it time. Because you can always find a positive reason that something bad happened when you look back on it afterwards. So for now, while you still don’t understand, just allow yourself to surrender to whatever changes are happening in your life, and trust that there is a reason for whatever it is, even if it looks like worst case scenario right now.
May you find peace, and the strength to surrender, even when it feels counterintuitive.
Love, Lanie ❤️